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Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Time to go crazy!

Errr. Not now of course, but during my 3 months holiday!

Lets seeee.. To do list:
- Spa day with JQ Lee
- Bazaar-hopping day! who wanna join!?
- Meet up with Ming
- KOREA!
- Huge party in January for all FICM'ians =)
- Sell away all my unused clothing!
- Plan and start on my big project!

Bwahahaha.. More to add on!
Hoooraayy!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

How do you spell the word "good"

I wish I could be a better person.

Sometimes uncertainties in life make you somewhat blurred about the future, sometimes even something that is staring right at your face makes you spin right round. (Okay I didn't make sense did I) Sigh.

I know hardly anybody reads this space anymore, but this is a personal space of mine for me to jot down my thoughts and scribble nonsense whenever I want to.
There is so much I want to do in my life. So often I let go of all those chances just because I'm afraid of what others would think of me if I fail. Yes, I'm a sore loser. I have not failed any subjects since primary school up till now. I am a very competitive person. I trained myself to either do well, or do extraordinarily good. Failure was not an option. I have extremely high expectations of myself. As long as its not 75% and above, its not good enough to me. That's why I am so very picky when it comes to assignments. Heck, even little things like how to hang my clothes or even how much to arrange my items in an orderly manner, I am sooooooo darn picky. Yes I may sound like a perfectionist, who has a super tidy and neat room, a clean study table free from random items such as cotton buds, left over bread and what not. But I'm not. My life and my thoughts, they are all over the place. Just like my room. It totally reflects on my life.
So messy. So, so messy.

Some people said I'm a confident person. I do my work with all my heart. I don't care what others think about me.
Truth is, every single day before I leave my room, no matter where am I heading to, I'll at least try on 3 different shirts/skirts/pants/dresses. Just to look good. Just so I can actually FEEL good and be slightly more confident. How people think of me, matters SO SO SO MUCH to me. I cannot bare knowing someone dislike me or even think that I am not a nice person to hang out with. I know nobody is perfect in this world, but argh. (Gawd I don't even know what am I typing anymore)

I have everything I want in life. Awesome family members, caring friends, parents who are willing to sacrifice and pay so much for my education. I don't have any life-threatening diseases, nor do I live in an unbearable condition.

Today, I also received my first Fail in my life. No, I didn't fail any exams whatsoever.
It was my assignment. I scored 48/100 for my Management assignment.
Reason: Lecturer mentioned instruction ABC, another tutor mentioned instruction XYZ.
So, since the lecturer is like the leader for the subject, I followed his instruction. But, because I followed instruction ABC, I was penalized for "NOT FOLLOWING MY INSTRUCTION"--Quote the tutor with instruction XYZ

Yes, its very near the passing line. Yes, some of you may think "aiyah this girl nothing better to do, like that also wanna complain"

The thing here is, many people told me to complain to the lecturer about it. I didn't.
Num 1: Lecturer and tutors = 1 team of colleagues. I'm sure the lecturer will have something good to say about the tutor anyway
Num 2: I realized that things happen for a reason. In the future, there will be conflicts of instructions from various decision makers. It may be the two marks that I've lost that made me so upset. But these 2 marks, are the best marks that I've lost.

You may not understand what is the big deal. but it's okay.

Today, I became wiser.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

An urge to scribble

I know I've said this gazillion times, but there is really nothing exciting in my life to blog about :(

I've been shopping so much recently (grocery shopping that is)

I feel like we're such monsters, referring to my housemates and myself.

4 of us finishes a tray of eggs in less than a week. o.0

At the rate we're eating, I'm gonna turn into a big fat lazy bimbo one day. real soon. *gasp

The only thing that I'm excited about is the HOLIDAYYYYS.

I know that when the holidays finally arrive, I'll be complaining about being bored and having the urge to do assignments. Gosh why am I so difficult?!

So lets seeeee, 43 more days to finals and 77 more days till I breathe in Korean air. Hahahaha. I sound so dumb. Lalaladida..

I saw a rainbow the other day :) Totally made my day! Wheeee

(okay if you haven't realise, this post is full of nothing but pure bullshit just cause I'm so bored and tired of reading powderful enggrish)

I wanna swim and go to the gym. AND SAUNA TOO!!! :'(

Dear Celcom Broadband, please speed up :( Pretttyyy pleaseeeeeeeeee

Dear Laptop, please do not fail on me anytime soon (Ooops daddie says not to use the word "not"). Let me rephrase, Dear Laptop, please be fine until I finish this semester (at least)

Dear University, please organize more fun-filled events and not some stupid quiz day =.="

Dear Ng Kai Ling, please come back at the end of the year before I die of boredom. Please and thank you :D

Bye bye

Friday, September 24, 2010

Happy Belated Mid-Autumn Festival

Errr, sometimes I get all hyped up like that ;)

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Doodle Doooo

I miss my Barney cupcakes :(

On a happier note, Korea trip in 92 days! :D

Mooncake festival coming soon! :D

More updates soon..

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Ola! I'm still alive!

Its been so long since I last posted anything in this space (not like anyone cares, but oh well)

Hmmm where should I start?

After my 20th birthday celebration in July, I went to Perth for a couple of days to pack my stuff, and also to meet up with the ladies back in Perth :)

We had really awesome food while I was there.. Too many to mention, let pictures speak for me!

Chee Yin made this for me as my birthday present! :)

So prettttyyyyyy!! Thank you again CheeYin! <3 <3

Skye and myself getting excited because there were balloons!

I cooked Bah Kut Teh on my last night there :(

Jenny who's supposed to be my housemate

Nice to meet you Jenny! :)

Skye. CheeYin. YiLing. Me

@ Little Caesars (awesome pizzas)

Pizza 1

Pizza 2

Dessert Pizza

MUD HONEY PIZZA!

Super nice lah, but after eating one piece, it will be too sweeeeet for you to take another.. haha

Noms..

This is what I call, sinful indulgence ;)

Nomsss. See the choc dripping!!!!

The next day, St. Churros =)

Very nice also!! I miss it alreadyyyy Boohoo

Syok-sendiri while Skye and Yi Ling try on their clothes :)

@ Fremantle

Little Creatures!

Heart this picca ;)

Nachos!

Roasted Pork with Potato and some apple thinggy on the right hand side, I love it!

They helped with packing :)

Below is an advertisement for the vacuum packing bag :P

We had loads of Nougats

And had this candid photo taken by Skye :)

Thank you all for the pleasant holiday in Perth :)

Monday, August 23, 2010

Scary thoughts

To me, the fastest thing on earth is not the speed of light, nor the speed of bullet train, or whatever fast moving objects out there.

To me, the fastest thing is nothing else but TIME.

Seriously, it's passing by way too fast.

The thought of "What my future is gonna be like?" , scare the crap outta me.

Its scary. Very scary.

It feels like yesterday I was still in high school, bandaging the students' wounds. Giving speeches and organizing camps, activities etc.

When I was in high school, after school, I'll either stay back in school having meeting with the committee, or staying at Red Crescent HeadQuarters planning and organizing events.

Life was hectic back then, but it was rather enjoyable. It was great. Nothing but total bliss.

Juggling between school, tuition, home, and Red Crescent.

2007, I left high school.

Went to Taylor's, Foundation in Communication July 2008 intake.

Where I met awesome friends. =)

I still had my confidence back then. I had the guts to volunteer myself to be the project manager in the first day of class. I knew it was gonna be tough, but I still did it anyway.

I had help from Amirul, Serene, Izzuddin, JQ, Aaron, Joanne, Christine, Imran.. and so many more people. We had sleepovers, late night talks, supper at 3am in the morning..

It was so much fun.

I wished I could stay on in Foundation programme forever.

Now, 2010. In Curtin. Yes I'm happy here.

I hate to admit this, but I'm no longer who I used to be.

My confidence is at level zero, or probably negative.

My self-esteem has gone down the drain.

Yes I still behave the same way when I'm around people I've known for a long time. But when it comes to meeting new people, I suck. Totally horrible at it.

I wonder what has happened. What was so powerful to pull me down this way.

Time for self discovery.