No "Jodoh"?

Just when I thought everything was fine, they decided to prove me wrong.  :(

Its just so, demotivating. 

The past 5 months in Murdoch was nothing but blergh-ness. and now even when I want to switch uni, so much of crap have to come in between.

I was so ready to go back to Perth to start all over again. To build up a new circle of friends, to be who I used to be, to be happy, finally.

Now I have to appeal for my release letter from Murdoch. If I don't get the release letter, I can't go to Curtin. 

If Murdoch refuse to give me the release letter, I will rather just come back to Malaysia and study here. There is NO WAY that I'm going to continue studying in Murdoch. I am not putting myself into that situation anymore. 

I want to be happy, that's all.

:(

Really like tak ada jodoh with Australia. 

This sucks. big time. Blerhhhh

Are you kidding me?

After a series of unfortunate events, well not literally "after", because some of it, or should I say most of them are still "ongoing".

Like how my next door flatmate and her kawan-kawan sekalian was singing to some weird songs and giggling at 12am. 

So...Today, I went for my lecture for Psychological Science. 

I was walking down the lecture theatre. anddd... I dont know how, but I just tripped and fell on my butt.

I sprained my right ankle and it hurts. like mad.

Of course I was embarrassed, but I couldn't care less of what others think of me.

It was damnnn damnnn damnnn painful la.

So I slowly got up, and found a place to sit down.

It was so painful I swear I almost teared.

So after like 5 minutes, the pain was gone and I thought "YAY I DIDN'T SPRAIN MY ANKLE IT WAS JUST A FALL"

Yeah right.

After the lecture, I went back to my room. and I saw my ankle. It was SLIGHTLY swollen. but not noticeable.

I took a nap before my next class.

When I got up. My ankle. Its worse. EVEN BIGGER ALREADY FML

Then, when I walked down the stairs, I suffered. Somemore stupid uni so many stairs. Urgh.

So yeah. Its officially swollen.

And yes, I sprained my ankle.

Thank you.

End of story

Sooner or Later

If this goes on, 

Sooner or later,

I will lose my mind,

I will no longer contain any sanity,

I will go crazy,

I will go blind

I've had a torturous time trying to adapt, trying to adjust. Now, can you fellow problems give me a break already? Thanksandbye.

My Lovely Considerate Flatmates

So, if you read my previous post, you'd know about my lovely flatmates.

This are the pictures I took in the morning.

Yups, look at the bottles. the cards on the floor. rubbish here and there

empty bottle on the floor. wth. and plastic bag?!  o.0

empty pizza box, cans, bottles. URGH

Pink jacket on the floor. WTH. 

You had sex is it?!?!? 

URGH. I AM SO FRUSTRATED I CAN KILL NOW.

URGHHHH.

And oh, guess what?! They are also having a party now FML MAX!

and tomorrow, classes officially starts.

Great, right?

I miss home

Being away from home sucks.


I miss every single bit of Malaysia, despite how much I complain.


Its the 1st day of Chinese New Year.
I'm still in my pyjamas and I just had instant noodles for lunch.
This isn't the way CNY should be. I miss my family. I miss my cousins. I miss my friends.
I miss my room. I miss complaining about the loud and noisy firecrackers. I miss having sleepless night because of that. All in all, I miss home. I really do.


I wish that time will just fly by as fast as possible, so that June will arrive faster and I can go back to where I belong.


I went to bed at 12-ish last night. 
All the noise, talking, laughing, clapping woke me up at around 2.50am.
It was my flatmates and their friends, having the time of their lives, and being super inconsiderate.
I couldnt take it anymore. No way I was going to be able to sleep with all the noise. 
I called Chee Yin and went to her place. (Thanks sooo much Chee Yin!)


So yeah, on CNY eve, I didnt even have a peaceful sleep. Wtf.

Seriously this sucks.


I wanna go home  =(

W.H.Y

WHYYYY
WHYYY
WHYYYYYYYYY


WHY ARE COSMETICS SO GOD DAMN EXPENSIVE?!


Sigh. I want those M.A.C brushes! *Just keep dreaming, dreaming, dreaming


SOBZ

Time

So many things to do

So little time

So many people to meet up with

So little time

TIME! Come back!! =(

I need

..A boost of confidence.


..A pair of ears to hear me out


..Love

First, its Uni applications


Then, its those unprofessionals criticizing others (while they themselves are such useless freaks)


Urgh.

This world is ugly-fied by these bunch of people whom causes stress to other people's lives.


Screw you. 

I don't know about you, but I get easily emotional when I'm all alone.

When I have no one to talk to (because everyone is busy/have class/working) , or when I have nothing to do, I get really really sad.

No, I don't mean that I'm sad cause I have lousy friends, because my friends are awesome. What I'm trying to say is that I hate being bored.

Yes, people need break. But all I need is a short break and that's it!

I don't need a long break, at all. 1 week is more than enough. Like, seriously.

Be it a lunch outing, a simple lunch that takes 1 to 2 hours, I will be more than happy.

Simply because I NEED to communicate with a living thing. Not my virtual farm - Barn Buddy (A game of Facebook just in case you don't know)

Maybe because I feel that I'm still young, and I have the ability and capacity to do anything and everything I want. But I'm not! Because nobody is free to accompany me.

Some of you might say : go for a movie by yourself!

Despite how much I want to give it a try, I'd rather not.

It will just remind me of how lifeless I am.

I need a job.

I need a life.

Leave me alone

Crappppppp.

I hate this.

Dreams

No idea why, but I'm feeling rather emotional now.

I need someone to talk to.

FTS.

Some things are just meant to be, is it?


You can't have the best of both world. I guess maybe that is why we're torn apart.

Whats left of us? I wonder. It used to be so much fun among all of us, and now nothing is left, but just a few of us.

Just Say It

Though some things are not easy to be said,

But its better if you do. Its easier for everyone that way.

and, I'm glad I did so :)



Now, all I can do is, be patient and hope for the very best.

Travel Documentary

Will be off to Singapore for our assignment :)

Will be back on Thursday/Friday. See ya'll

..I am hoping for a miracle. (fingers crossed)

Great

Just when I thought I am going to have a good day..

Great. Fabulous.

Pfft.

So not

Today is soooo not my day.

Pfft.

Silence

I love silence, especially when I'm alone/stressed/sad.

I prefer to be left alone when I'm upset, as I do not like people coming to me and asking 100000000001 times of "Are You Okay?"

Helloo!? Of course I'm not okay..If I'm okay, I wouldn't be sad right? Wth.
People who know me well are really good at making me feel better. They will just leave me for a while, say 10-15mins ('coz thats the time I need to be by myself and everything will be better) , then they will start making lame jokes/laugh at my stupidity/curse the person who made me feel sad/emo and many many more..

No offence to those who tried to offer help by asking "are you okay?", but, do YOU like people to ask you the same question when it is freaking obvious that you are so NOT okay?


How many of you are really really really really really close to your parents/family? As in, you tell EVERY SINGLE THING thats happening in your life? Do let me know. I'm really curious.

I really envy those girls whom their mom is their best friend, whereby their mom will talk to them about everything from make up to cooking to crushes and the list goes on and on. (Okay, I bet you get what I'm saying)

I also wished that I had a sister around my age, best example would be Evie and Rach, my cousins. :)
Yes they can argue like nobody's business and make me feel awkward as the middle person, but at the end of the day, they will be just fine..
Its really nice to have someone to talk to at night, before you fall asleep; or when you're stressed; or when you want to talk about your lil' secrets.

When I'm at home, I spend most of my time in my room. Its the place where I feel like, its just me and my world.
I can be really happy and hyper, and also super emo.

And before anyone of you thinks that I'm not happy with my family, its not like that. I am happy with them. Its just some of my thoughts, about having a super close relationship with my family.
The person who is the closest to me in my family now is my younger brother. He will come into my room and irritate the hell outta me, but I love him loads. He can make me laugh like a mad woman by doing all his famous underwear show and silly dances.. Maybe because of the never-changing age gap, I don't think I will ever be able to be SUPER DUPER close with my parents.

I don't know anymore

I don't know what else to do anymore.

Made a joke - Got scolding

Anything and everything I do is not good enough.

You only see the negative parts, what about the good side of me? You will just see thru it, right?
I know I'm not your future lawyer/doctor/professional/whateverthatyouwillbeproudof

I'm always the lousy one. I don't expect compliments cause I know I will never get them, but at least, don't be like how you are lately.

We only get to interact with one another for a few hours each day, do you realise?

Upside Down

I'm going crazy soon. =(

Give me a star

When you are older

"When you are older" "When you are old enough"

When will that be? Never. Because the age gap is still the same.

-end of story-